memory shadow stain scar

 staring into the voidy everythingness of the black sky

singing out loud with tears flowing

running away but lonely

wishing to die but slowly and in no pain at all

a déjà vu from back when there was no colour

there’s water dripping from the ceiling in the cave of my memory

you were there too, but i was hallucinating

i dreamt of really sick stuff

can you feel the voidy everythingness of the black sky?

do you sing with tears flowing?

do you know the feeling that has no name at all?

is it just mine or is it a worldwide phenomenon? 

one night i’ll see you there

sitting in my tree

i will count to three

one.. i’m sitting … i’m lying i’m dying

one… i’m pushing my hands onto my ears in a spasmodic endeavour to curl myself up in my bed, madly shocked, awoken by a scream in the distance

two… the web separating the worlds is so thin i see a pale thin i see a pale thin shadow of a person, i’m shaking in my own anxious bubble getting smaller

three… i feel his cold hand lightly touching mine

i scream and it’s all gone

i will come to thee

i will count to three

one… i’m pushing my hands onto my ears in a spasmodic endeavour to curl myself up in my bed, madly shocked, awoken by a scream in the distance, a scream of my own

two… there’s a sound of glass being broken and something hits me… i’m falling, covered in gashes

three…

i’m in your arms crying and so are you, in the voidy everythingness of the black sky

we’re singing with tears flowing down our faces

mixing with the blood on us

singing like we’re going to die