imok

 i like your silly smiles

i wonder if they’re lies

i’m anxious all the time

i wonder, will it die?

*i mock i mock i mock girls like me

i mock, i mock, i’m mean to everyone

i am so mean i even mock myself, but hey, i’m okay*

i have a silly smile

but darling, it’s a lie

i’m not the only one

who sometimes wants to die

<black as night, sweet as sin, pouring right out through my skin

no one knows, no one cares, don’t exist, never been there

fallen leaves, i’m diseased, sunset sky, i’m on my knees

settle down, catch your breath, scared of life and scared of death>

**

what’s behind your silly smile?

stay right here for a little while

i’m not the only one who’s blinded by the sun

<<in my heart, piece of art,

i am feeling like a fart

secret code, overload, i’m about to fall apart

spiderweb, step by step, close your eyes and don’t be sad

it is cheap, go to sleep, never cry and never weep>>

**

** i mock i mock i mock girls like me

i mock, i mock, i’m mean to everyone

amok amok amok, smash my head, now i’m dead**

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i’m dead